Something big in '08?

Hmmm ... I feel like something is bubbling under the surface. Something that fills me with anticipation. What that something is exactly I don't know. And if it is real or not I don't know.

I almost always feel something good as a new year dawns -- I'm just optimistic in that way I think. On the other hand, though, maybe I'm just avoiding the negative feelings of the current year by focusing all my energy on "It'll happen next year."

In 1997, I felt it would happen in 1998. It didn't. In 2002, I felt it would happen in 2003. It didn't. In 2006, I felt it would happen this year. It didn't. So ... could it be different in 2008? Yes. It is totally within my power for it to be different, which is the crazy thing. But will it be different? I don't know.

I do know that for the first time in maybe forever, I am ending a year weighing less than I did when I started the year. That's certainly something. It could have been a lot more if I hadn't stalled so badly with WW in the past months, but I've still done something that I have possibly never done before. So I will be happy with that. For now.

'I don't care if it is an orgy of death, there's still such a thing as a napkin?'